Updated: Jan 24, 2020
Have you been through the healthcare circle of hell?
That's what call the 10 years I spent in and out of doctors.
It was miserable to be poked, prodded and laughed at.
By the time I threw in the towel and said I had enough - I was told I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome, depression, anxiety, and chronic pain on the right side of my body.
The pain there are barely answers for. I just know what I felt over time and it wore me down.
Trust me, I tried to live without any pain medications, but I popped Tylenol like it was candy.
I was told by a therapist I’m a highly sensitive person (HSP). Meaning I feel and process the world differently. Something I have I learned to love and hate. I don’t like to use the word “hate” but that is one part of me that I’m definitely not at peace with it.
I appreciate the senses I have for the outside world but lack an appreciation for what I feel in my body. Every. Single. Day.
My brain is on overdrive, running like Usain Bolt on a hamster wheel. It never stops.
And it's for those reasons I chose cannabis to be my medicine and pass-time.
Cannabis (when used correctly) allows a person to
function and be productive during the day
use cannabis and not be high
integrate their medicine or pass-time into life
Cannabis helped when nothing else was. I believe when cannabis is used correctly, it can help you live an active life and be present in the moment.
That’s how cannabis is for me. But I also had to make a decision about cannabis before I started using it. Two rules that I still adhere to today: 1) cannabis can never interfere with my life 2) cannabis can never interfere with my routines.
Those 2 rules are important in my life because as someone who has an addictive personality and has a past with marijuana – I didn’t want to slip back into bad habits.
Although physically and mentally I was in a bad place for a long time, my life wasn’t bad. In fact, life was good. I had my own little family, my son, and my boyfriend. And I did not want cannabis to consume my life in a bad way, I just needed help.
Cannabis gave that to me. Cannabis helps me.
Using cannabis as medicine is tricky. Dosing can be hard and with all the ways to consume cannabis, you don't always know the outcome. Two ways to combat doing too much is to micro-dose and use CBD.
I've learned little goes a long way, being high all time is not that fun, and CBD is the greatest friend to THC.
Using cannabis as a medicine takes time and patience to figure out what will work for you.
I believe it’s worth it.
It’s the same thing when a doctor gives you a prescription and tells you to follow up for 1 to 12 months to find your dose.
Choosing cannabis instead of a glass of wine or beer is the same thing.
I chose cannabis because when you are done being high, you are done. The lingering effects are minimal, you don’t lose an entire day because of a hangover and making choices you regret is highly unlikely (pun intended).
I chose cannabis because it can change with you as you grow and heal. What you need today, you may not need tomorrow. I can choose how much medicine or fun I want to have. Choosing cannabis is choosing a different way of life - a life on your terms. It's living a cannabis-friendly lifestyle. A life that works for you. What more could you ask for?